Explain it to me

Thoughts under construction you said,

"Only ten more minutes dear."

But don't I know it when I see it

Windows and glass and breaking so clear.

The sea parted by your hand you claim

because it knew what you knew.

But why the fuck should I believe you

when you don't even bother to explain. 

No, heads under water, monsters with bellies

breathing our air and we start to get jealous.

Thoughts on the rugs and our tights and our drinks

I've been watching you close to hear what you think.

The problem is me, I'm guessing by now.

You speak your thoughts clear thought I just don't see how

when you are alone you're crying and fucked

but with other people you're cool calm and--

When it's just us I ask you to talk

so the silence can't scream and the air cannot suck

at the thoughts in my head when I ask you to speak

I want to know how you got way too deep.

But with heads under water and 

words even farther

I can't seem to find my own ground...

and you laugh and you twist my words 

over my wrist

and you tell me not to make a sound...

And just beyond that you're lonely, you're cold

you're running from ghosts that are wrinkled and old.

You ask me to wait up when you're far ahead

I might, I just can't...I don't understand.

And just thrice again I beg you explain

the words and the air and the girl who's not sane.

You're laughing with eyes that are red beyond blood

I'm screaming the words as we swim through the mud.

And again I can't ask what we're doing right here

with no ground and no air and no fear fear fear fear.

Again I can't ask how we got this chin-deep

when you're sinking and drowning and I'm blind like a sheep.

Down in the dungeons where we so echo loud

Our SCREAMS and our THOUGHTS and our

heads are not proud.

Just explain it all clear like a glass in the night.

I'm waiting for love to tuck me in tight.