Friday, April 9, 2010

Oof, choices...

Too much
Too long
Too thick
Too big
Too stressful
Too important
Too off-balance
Too uncomfortable
Too awkward
Too easy
Too close
Too foggy
Too hot
Too scratchy
Too empty
Too
Too
Too
Too
Too
Too

Too much work
Too much responsibility
Too much pressure
Too much noise
Too much, and I give in.

Practicemakesperfect
Passtheair
I'llinhale,
I'llinhale,
I'mflying...
flying...
flying...
falling.

And then we're back to too much, because that's it.
Your words
your friends
your people.
Your lifestyle,
your choices,
your activities.
Your everything, and I'm following.
But you pull me downdowndown, and I'm drowning again.

Only, I'm not.
I'm alive.

And it's you who's dead, when all I really need is something solid.


Shit, but I've done this a million times, yeah? No problemo, I'm in.
And, sure, I'll bring the papers. I'll do the project. I'll write it all out, while I'm completely out of it.
I'm coooooool.
I'm down.
I'm just amazingly great with my reputation and what I do every week, because that's who I am.

Fuck.
I'm a liar, nothing else.
Everything I say is a lie, even when it's the truth.

Why should I be trusted?

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